50's

Wow! I am now a half century old! On Friday Harold and the kids gave me a nice Dinner party with a few of my close friends. We had such a nice time! They did a fabulous job of hostessing and I thank them for their love and commitment to me.

I've been thinking alot about what it means to cross into this new era in my life....

Have I changed? Do I still have the same values? Do I have new ones? What is it that I really care about?

There is a lot of reflecting going on in my head these days.....

I've had two recent deaths in my family and a brother that is literally fighting to survive.

Someone asked me the other day...."Have you questioned God about why" I'm glad she asked because it allowed me to verbally speak out so that I could hear my answer audibly and so that the enemy could hear me say it....."I don't question God anymore....I simply have to trust HIM".

Have I changed? No, I have not changed....God has changed me...
Do I still have the same values? YES, YES, YES....no one can change that
Do I have new ones? Yes I do...one very important one that I've acquired over the last 5 years...."I don't value material things" What material things?....I don't value a high end vehicle....I don't value a Mansion.....I don't value Diamonds.....I don't get impressed by people that are millionaires...I've been around them for most of my career and they are not impressive at all. Celebrities do NOT IMPRESS ME. etc.....

What do I really care about? My obedience to the Lord. My Husband and my Children and my Grandchildren....I care about my extended family and pray for them always. I care for my friends and their needs. I care for the body of Christ that is the church and for their needs.

I sometimes find myself quiet in a room full of people at any given occasion and I hear their converstions....people are interesting to watch and listen to from afar....
you will learn alot about their values by just listening.

I was sitting at my doctors' office the other day and just listening to various conversations...very interesting stuff.

I think God enjoys our conversation also...He sits back and listens too and I wonder what He does when our conversations never include Him....or when our conversations are so shallow. I don't believe we always need to have Spiritual conversation at all times.....I certainly don't. But when all you do is talk about your car or your house or expensive things...I think God leaves that conversation and just shakes His head at us. I love to laugh, I love to tease....I'm sure God laughs at some of my jokes also....but somewhere in my talks I want to know that he is enjoying my conversation and He is pleased with my values.

My next 50s will be interesting...because I've always been called bold....but I hear that as you get older you get bolder....well if that's true "watch out"!

I want to be Bold about my Lord.....always with love and compassion and no condemnation....


I'm proud to be 50...I've come a long way....I'm happy, content, at peace, full of love, in good health. What more can I ask for?

Thank you Lord for everything!